{"id":507,"date":"2016-05-11T12:43:20","date_gmt":"2016-05-11T18:43:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/?p=507"},"modified":"2016-05-11T12:43:20","modified_gmt":"2016-05-11T18:43:20","slug":"my-fears-bore-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/?p=507","title":{"rendered":"My fears bore me"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Yes, it&#8217;s true. I am still held back by fear and it has started to bore me. I mean, okay I know this anxiety. I&#8217;ve carried it with me, I&#8217;ve fought it for many, many years. I&#8217;ve made a lot of progress, too, on understanding where the fear lives and how to move past it. And last week I had the fear again and it slowed me down. But in addition to the fear I felt annoyed. I know you, fear, and you bore me.<\/p>\n<p>As I&#8217;ve discovered with my other projects, the main place fear still arises and causes me to lose ground is when I look at, get near, or even ponder finishing a thing. Anything, not only writing but artwork or any kind of creative work will invoke the fear. And I&#8217;ve let it stop me cold far too often.<\/p>\n<p>Which is the long way of reporting that I only hit about 30% of my goal time last week, entirely because of anxiety and fear. I am happy that it was at least 30%, and that I&#8217;ve continued the work this week as well. I am very close to finishing this picture, and determined to push through this one, and then the next, and the text, and this book.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t know who made this silly little picture, but for some reason the tiny potato makes me happy. So I share this with you. I&#8217;d love to credit the creator, so please post in comments if you know.<\/p>\n<p \/><center><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/clarybooks.com\/Pics\/tiny-potato.jpg\" border=\"o\" alt=\"Tiny potato believes in you\" style=\"margin:20px\"><\/center><\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile, here&#8217;s the <a href=\"http:\/\/www.linkytools.com\/wordpress_list.aspx?id=268515&#038;type=basic&#038;AspxAutoDetectCookieSupport=1\">blog hop link<\/a> for today&#8217;s check-in. May we all have confidence in our ability to create, and to finish.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yes, it&#8217;s true. I am still held back by fear and it has started to bore me. I mean, okay I know this anxiety. I&#8217;ve carried it with me, I&#8217;ve fought it for many, many years. I&#8217;ve made a lot <span class=\"excerpt-dots\">&hellip;<\/span> <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/?p=507\"><span class=\"more-msg\">Continue reading &rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[27,10],"tags":[22],"class_list":["post-507","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-artwork","category-covers","tag-row80"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1x1Kd-8b","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/507","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=507"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/507\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=507"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=507"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.clarybooks.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=507"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}